Ebb and Flow

'I come back to you now, at the turn of the tides...' Good old Gandalf in Lord of the Rings (Peter Jackson version, can't remember if he says that in the book and am not about to flick through to find out. Just totally feeling that now. People I haven't heard from for years keep appearing in my life, long stories unknown to me and such long paths travelled from where they last diverged.

I have the feeling that always comes in spring, the beginning, rebirth, emerging, stretching to the sun.. but this year is is even more so. I feel like running everywhere and have done so on a few occasions this week, probably making myself look like a loon and not caring. In sleet and snow, running down Dundas Street to meet old friends at the Royal Academy building; thinking how this has been my home for so long now that I would feel like a tourist in London. I like to follow the eyes of the visitors as they gaze at buildings to try and see what they are seeing, as they see it; for the first time, in wonder.

Part of me is dissolusioned with people and their bitchy little ways, but I feel that if I just shake my shoulders they will fall away and leave me with the solid people I can trust and be comfortable with. I can feel the wind turning and the chance to take flight, make a great leap 'beyond myself'. Don't laugh, it is happening.